July 1, 2025 to July 31, 2026
✦ PRISM PORTAL ✦A YEAR MAPPED AGAINST THE SKY
with the Mercury Retrograde Log
The year Uranus crossed my Ascendant
Published August 2, 2026
Every event is from my daily journal, dated as it happened. Every astrology aspect is calculated from Swiss Ephemeris — nothing invented. The Mercury retrograde incidents from my audit are folded into the months they fell in. 🖤
With the convergence of challenging aspects for the past year, often up to a dozen happening concurrently, in most cases, forces outside my control — an indescribable year showing how real astrology can be.
A note on the running totals at the foot of each month: they count dated journal entries as they accumulate, month by month. The ledger at the end counts distinct cases, which is a smaller number — one case can run across many dated entries.
A Natal Chart Read: Personal Aspects On Top of Astrology In Real Time
My Past Few Weeks (+ Future Weeks Ahead)
Natal (inner) × Transits (outer) · Swiss Ephemeris
The inner wheel is my birth chart. The outer wheel is the sky as it actually stood, drawn for the midpoint of the week. Only the hard aspects are plotted — conjunctions, squares (dashed) and oppositions (solid) — because those are the ones you feel. Twenty-one of them land on my natal placements at once, inside a cardinal grand cross and three separate T-squares. This is the picture underneath everything on the pages that follow.
✦ The week the sky stacked up
July 23 to 29, 2026
In the single week of July 23 to 29, 2026, more than twenty exact squares and oppositions converged on my chart at the same time — thirty-nine of them when the transit-to-transit aspects are counted alongside the ones touching my birth chart directly. This was not a passing weather system. Saturn, the lunar nodes, Uranus and Chiron move slowly, so most of these had been tightening for months before that week and several are still running now. What follows are the three heaviest, calculated to the arcminute, and then the full board.
1. The North Node square my Ascendant — 42 arcminutes
True Node 0°02′ Pisces □ natal Ascendant 0°43′ Gemini
This is the big one, and it is bigger than a square. The node came to my rising degree and stationed there, making the aspect exact three separate times — July 2, July 6 and July 8 — before turning into Aquarius on July 26. And it did not stop at the Ascendant: the same nodal axis was simultaneously opposite my Saturn on Regulus at 1°27′ and square my Vesta at 1°51′. That is not a square, it is a nodal grand cross across my identity point, my authority point and the point of what I give myself to. The nodes are the fate axis. When they park on your Ascendant and refuse to move, the story is not what you do — it is what is being done to the shape of your life.
2. It is not a T-square. It is a cardinal grand cross.
Mercury 16°40′ Cancer □ natal Pluto 16°40′ Libra ● Saturn 14°45′ Aries ☊ natal Pluto ● natal Mercury 19°39′ Capricorn
The fourth arm was already in my chart. Transiting Mercury in Cancer sat zero arcminutes from the exact square to my natal Pluto — a perfect hit, not a near one — while transiting Saturn in Aries opposed that same Pluto from 1°55′, and my own natal Mercury in Capricorn closed the fourth corner. All four cardinal signs occupied at once, all within two degrees. And here is the part almost nobody would catch: Mercury stationed direct on July 23 at 6:57 PM ET at 16°19′ Cancer — twenty-one arcminutes from the exact square to my Pluto. A stationing planet stands still. It did not pass over that square; it stopped on it and sat there for days.
3. My Chiron return — standing still, and turning back
Chiron 0°50′ Taurus □ natal Mars 28°58′ Cancer (1°52′) ● conjunct natal Chiron 1°15′ Taurus (25′)
I chose this one for the board because it is the only item on it that happens once in a lifetime. Chiron came within twenty-three arcminutes of my natal Chiron — close enough to feel like the return had arrived — and then stationed retrograde on August 3, 2026 at 0°52′ Taurus and turned back. Which means the first exact Chiron return does not land until May 5, 2027, with two more after it (November 18, 2027 and March 2, 2028). And while it stood still, it was squaring my Mars. The Chiron return is the wound that becomes the work. Mine arrived, touched the door, and stepped back — the year of recovery is not behind me, it is scheduled.
And the rest of the board that week — twenty-nine exact-to-tight contacts with my birth chart, calculated for July 26, 2026, sorted by orb:
| Mercury 16°40′ Cancer | square my Pluto 16°40′ Libra | 0°00′ |
| Pallas 21°39′ Aries | square my Part of Fortune 21°09′ Capricorn | 0°30′ |
| True Node 0°02′ Pisces | square my Ascendant 0°43′ Gemini | 0°42′ |
| Venus 18°28′ Virgo | square my Neptune | 0°51′ |
| True Node | opposite my Saturn 28°35′ Leo, on Regulus | 1°27′ |
| Mars 19°27′ Gemini | opposite my Neptune | 1°50′ |
| True Node | square my Vesta | 1°51′ |
| Chiron 0°50′ Taurus | square my Mars 28°58′ Cancer | 1°52′ |
| Saturn 14°45′ Aries | opposite my Pluto 16°40′ Libra | 1°55′ |
| Pallas | square my Mercury | 2°01′ |
| Moon 1°07′ Capricorn | square my Moon | 2°13′ |
| Sun 3°42′ Leo | square my Chiron | 2°26′ |
| Juno 3°44′ Aquarius | square my Chiron | 2°29′ |
| Jupiter 5°47′ Leo | opposite my Sun 8°28′ Aquarius | 2°41′ |
| Mercury | opposite my Mercury | 2°58′ |
| Uranus 4°50′ Gemini | opposite my Pallas | 3°01′ |
| Pluto 4°18′ Aquarius | square my Chiron | 3°03′ |
| Neptune 4°19′ Aries | opposite my North Node | 3°08′ |
| … and eleven more out to 6°20′ | ||
Ten more between the transiting planets themselves, in the same week:
| Sun opposite Juno | 0°03′ | Sun opposite Pluto | 0°36′ |
| Venus square Mars | 0°59′ | Jupiter opposite Pluto | 1°29′ |
| Mercury square Saturn | 1°55′ | Jupiter opposite Juno | 2°02′ |
| Sun square Chiron | 2°51′ | Chiron square Juno | 2°54′ |
| Moon square Neptune | 3°12′ | Pluto square Chiron | 3°28′ |
Twenty of these are squares and oppositions to my own birth chart. Astrologers argue about orbs; they do not argue about a zero-arcminute hit, a stationing planet, or a node that stops on your rising degree. This is what the week of July 23 to 29, 2026 actually looked like — and it is the reason the year reads the way it reads.
The Year Ahead Begins Here
✦ PRISM PORTAL ✦A YEAR MAPPED AGAINST THE SKY
July 1, 2025 — July 31, 2026
The year Uranus crossed my Ascendant · with the Mercury Retrograde Log
Every event is from my daily journal, dated as it happened. Every astrology aspect is calculated from Swiss Ephemeris — nothing invented. The Mercury retrograde incidents from my audit are folded into the months they fell in. 🖤
With the convergence of challenging aspects for the past year, often up to a dozen happening concurrently, in most cases, forces outside my control — an indescribable year showing how real astrology can be.
A note on the running totals at the foot of each month: they count dated journal entries as they accumulate, month by month. The ledger at the end counts distinct cases, which is a smaller number — one case can run across many dated entries.
✦ WHAT THIS IS ✦
This is thirteen months of my own life — July 1, 2025 to July 31, 2026 — taken straight from the daily journal I have kept for twenty years, and mapped against the astrology that was actually running overhead on each of those dates. Every event is dated as it happened. Every astrology aspect is calculated from Swiss Ephemeris to the arcminute. Nothing was rounded, remembered or invented.
I call this stretch of time the Prism Portal. It is my name for the years we are living through right now, when the outer planets change signs and line up with one another in a way they have not in modern human history — Uranus into Gemini, Neptune into Aries, Pluto settling into Aquarius, Saturn into Aries, and the nodes swinging into Aquarius and Leo. White light enters a prism as one beam and leaves it separated into everything it was always made of. That is what this year did to me. It is what it is doing to a great many of you.
What the year produced, counted from the journal itself: 43 distinct cases of fraudulence, 19 doctor visits, 10 procedures, and 51 entries about Ruby, my thirteen-year-old shih tzu. In the single week of July 23–29, 2026 there were 17 squares and oppositions to my natal chart, including a cardinal grand cross and three T-squares. On July 26 the nodes moved into Aquarius and Leo at 29°59′, putting the South Node onto my natal Saturn at 28°35′ Leo — it perfects on October 12, 2026. On July 29 the full moon at 6°30′ Aquarius fell 1°58′ from my natal Sun, with Pluto at 4°14′ of the same sign.
As far as I have been able to find, no astrologer has ever published a record like this. Not because nobody thought of it — because until now nobody could afford the arithmetic. Cardano built an entire autobiography around a single direction in his own chart. Ashmole cast figures for his own decisions and wrote himself into his diaries under the glyph of Mercury. They were working by hand, off printed tables, where one year of exact transits would have cost them months of calculation. They were not missing the idea. They were missing the math.
Read it as a year, not as a list. Each month below gives what happened first, then the sky that was running while it happened. You create your reality ∞
July 2025
The ingress — and the first cases of fraudulence Uranus enters Gemini
🌍 What happened
- Jul 1 — Tore a muscle in my leg the moment I woke up, then lost the whole day when a developer I'd just hired had done nothing.
- Jul 2 — The rebuilt website came back looking the exact opposite of what I had asked — another afternoon gone.
- Jul 6 — Discovered the developers I'd hired were defrauding me; forced to pause the contract. — Uranus square my natal Saturn; Mercury opposite my Sun.
- Jul 10 — Contractors piled on at once: one flaked, one demanded crypto, one withheld access to my email list.
- Jul 12 — Locked out of my apartment; a food order never arrived; another full day hunting for a developer.
- Jul 17 — Watched Ruby cry and struggle with her leg, unable to make her run again.
- Jul 19 — Tore the leg muscle again in the night — couldn't walk — after 100+ hour weeks. — Uranus conjunct my Ascendant (0.2°); Mercury square my Uranus; Mars square my Neptune.
- Jul 20 — No sleep, still-injured calf, and word of a death in the family.
- Jul 24 — Accidentally took the wrong medication; a New York Times journalist lied to me — she admitted she only wanted a private reading, no real interest in a story. I ended it instantly.
- Jul 25–26 — Severe sleep paralysis two nights running; passed out on the floor. — Uranus exact on my Ascendant (0.0°); the Sun square my Chiron.
- Uranus enters Gemini (Jul 7) and lands on my 0°43′ Gemini Ascendant — first exact hit Jul 25 (0.0°).
- Mercury retrograde in Leo, conjunct my natal Saturn-Regulus.
- Uranus square my natal Saturn.
- Pluto square my Chiron — the slow, draining square that will run all year.
- Full Moon Jul 10, 18°50′ Capricorn — conjunct my natal Mercury.
☿℞ Mercury Retrograde · Jul 18 – Aug 11 · Leo
Stations retrograde Jul 18 at 15°35′ Leo, turns direct Aug 11 at 4°15′ Leo — in my 3rd house of voice, contracts and daily communication. The year's whole story of broken contracts and dishonest hires opened right under it.
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- The microphone — 19 days and four different devices chasing a fault, and a $4,000 computer I bought sure the machine was to blame. The cause was one button on the mic. Ten days before Great Awakener launched.
- Jul 12 · Aug 12 · Aug 16 — Locked out of my own apartment three times in seven weeks; the third was a $500 locksmith.
- Launch weekend — the developers I’d hired defrauded me; someone tried to sign into my Apple account from abroad; I missed my own 11:11 slot over a forgotten promo code.
- One appointment I reached an hour early; the next I took the wrong train and arrived an hour late.
🐾 Ongoing: Ruby in physical therapy, twice a week.
Running total to date3 cases of fraudulence0 legal matters opened0 procedures on my back0 doctor visits
August 2025
Great Awakener launches — through a wall of fraudulence it launched
🌍 What happened
- Aug 1 — A payment dispute escalated: a contractor sent harassing messages and death threats.
- Aug 3 — The dispute headed to arbitration; the contractor sent another death threat; my gear kept failing.
- Aug 9 — Broke down crying in the park under two weeks of no sleep and 14-hour days.
- Aug 12 — Great Awakener launched. I missed both 11:11 windows and got locked out amid construction — but near 2 a.m., we went live. Thankfully, we launched. — Venus & Jupiter conjunct in Cancer, on Sirius; Uranus conjunct my Ascendant.
- Aug 16 — Ruby still couldn't walk, may need surgery; I didn't eat all day, got dizzy; locked out again ($500 locksmith).
- Aug 19 — Someone tried to hack my account from abroad; a $400 cleaner I'd booked didn't clean and demanded another $40 in cash to do it — then the company's support rep tried to defraud me, gave me a fake confirmation number, and hung up on me.
- Aug 20–24 — The emergency agency I'd paid to rescue the site never actually debugged it — dozens of platform issues, days of fixes I got dragged into — while the customer-support person I'd hired didn't answer a single ticket.
- Aug 25 — A developer billed $3,000 for unapproved work — the project's bottleneck. Worse: he sent a letter of extortion, stopped production, and stole my website. That is a crime. — Jupiter square my natal Pluto (0.04°); Mercury square my Uranus.
- Aug 26 — Filed a formal dispute; strong-armed over an extra fee; paid another $4K after finding the site hadn't even been transferred.
- Aug 29 — On three hours' sleep, canceled physical therapy again; a developer botched the ad work and broke my trust once more.
- Aug 30 — Found the developer I'd paid $5,000 had run prompts through ChatGPT and done none of the real work — fired him, then had to go through mediation and arbitration. — Uranus conjunct my Ascendant; Jupiter square my Pluto.
- Uranus conjunct my Ascendant all month — the launch born under it.
- Venus & Jupiter conjunct in Cancer, on Sirius — the two benefics on the brightest star in the sky.
- Jupiter square my natal Pluto.
- Pluto square my Chiron (~1°) — begins its months-long grind here.
- Mars opposite Saturn; Mercury retrograde into mid-August.
- Full Moon Aug 9, 17° Aquarius — square my natal Uranus.
🐾 Ongoing: Ruby in physical therapy, twice a week.
Running total to date8 cases of fraudulence3 legal matters opened0 procedures on my back1 doctor visits first — Aug 29
September 2025
The disputes deepen, and Ruby declines
🌍 What happened
- Sep 2 — Drove upstate for what should have been a break; instead, morning emergencies (a dead car battery) and a former contractor refusing to finish paid work.
- Sep 3 — 14 hours blocking that contractor's payment, reporting him, and hunting a lawyer abroad to recover ~$10K.
- Sep 4 — Upstate but never off — no break, no vacation, stuck inside on the computer 14 hours a day.
- Sep 8 — Late to physical therapy, body depleted; distrust growing over a a collaborator I no longer trusted.
- Sep 11 — About five moments where I hit my limit; the vet says Ruby needs an echocardiogram and a ~$5K stem-cell procedure. — Saturn opposite my Moon (0.35°); Jupiter opposite my Mercury; Mercury square my Neptune.
- Sep 14 — The email / help-desk system broke completely — a 12-hour day trying to fix it.
- Sep 17 — No sleep; skipped showering for COO interviews; the contractor escalated into mediation, up until 4 a.m.
- Sep 20 — Watched Ruby struggle to stand with no muscle left — the most heartache I’ve felt.
- Sep 21 — Solar eclipse 29° Virgo — exact on my natal Moon (0.2°). The same day: opposite Saturn (which squared my Jupiter), Mars 29° Libra squared my natal Mars, Uranus sat on my Ascendant, and Pluto squared my Chiron. My angular houses, all lit at once — health, my dog, my digestion. I was getting pounded.
- Sep 24 — A pounding headache and full-body stress; two team members turned difficult while I recorded 12 videos. — Mars opposite my Chiron; Saturn opposite my Moon; Uranus conjunct my Ascendant.
- Sep 30 — A vet skipped Ruby's bloodwork; a pharmacy flat-out refused to fill my monthly prescription over an insurance snag — the opposite of what healthcare is supposed to be. — Sun conjunct my North Node, opposite my South Node.
- Saturn retrograde into Pisces — opposite my Virgo Moon, square my Jupiter (a T-square).
- Total lunar eclipse Sep 7, 15° Pisces — square my Neptune.
- Solar eclipse Sep 21, 29° Virgo — on my natal Moon (0.2°), opposite Saturn, square my Jupiter, Mars square my Mars.
- Pluto square my Chiron (0.2°); Uranus on my Ascendant.
- Mars into Scorpio square Pluto (~the 24th); Jupiter opposite my Mercury.
🐾 Ongoing: Ruby in physical therapy, twice a week.
Running total to date10 cases of fraudulence4 legal matters opened0 procedures on my back2 doctor visits
October 2025
My body starts sending the bill
🌍 What happened
- Oct 1 — Started my own twice-weekly physical therapy for my back; a designer demanded ~$6K more than we'd agreed.
- Oct 3 — A developer said the launch would slip another 20 days over a "new design."
- Oct 5 — Ruby suddenly couldn't walk — I feared her medication had stopped working.
- Oct 8 — One of the hardest days: Ruby couldn't walk and two contractors each tried to pad their invoices $2K, which I refused.
- Oct 16 — Finally saw a key build after two weeks of asking — badly incomplete; a 3-hour call revealed the migration was never done. Again, I was lied to.
- Oct 17 — A developer I'd told to touch NOTHING pushed a single commit that crashed the entire website — all of Great Awakener, down. — Uranus exact on my Ascendant (0.06°); Saturn square my Jupiter; Mercury conjunct my Uranus.
- Oct 19 — Accidentally deleted a long personal writing project and broke down crying.
- Oct 21 — A two-hour wheelchair fitting at the vet — then they couldn't even assemble the chair they'd told me to buy. It became an eight-day ordeal before they refunded both the visit and the wheelchair that never fit Ruby. — New Moon 28° Libra square my natal Mars, opposite Chiron; Jupiter closing on my Mars; Pluto square my Chiron.
- Oct 24–26 — Two days posting a developer ad and interviewing until 4 a.m.; the one I hired couldn't fix the site, broke the contract — then out of nowhere, stole and held Great Awakener hostage, emailing me to pay extra. Classic extortion. Thanks, Uranus. I had to pull the hiring platform in just to get my own website back.
- Oct 27 — Back injections and Botox from a pain specialist; took Ruby to the surgeon for her stem-cell shot; a pounding headache — I'd never had headaches in my life. — Venus conjunct my Pluto; Mercury square my Saturn.
- Oct 29 — A robbery — I filed a report and went to the police station, then broke down that night. — Venus square my Mercury (0.01°); Mercury opposite my Ascendant.
- Oct 30 — A stalker had to be blocked; a detective called for more.
- Oct 31 — Another stalker taunted me; and the website went down again — an urgent scramble to fix it. — Sun square my Sun (0.02°); the nodes (17° Pisces/Virgo) square my Neptune — a T-square on my angular houses; Neptune opposite my Moon.
- Uranus retrogrades back across my Ascendant — 2nd exact hit Oct 19.
- Pluto square my Chiron — its tightest of the whole year (1°22′ on my Chiron 1°15′), Oct 6–21.
- New Moon Oct 21, 28° Libra — square my natal Mars, opposite Chiron; Jupiter closing on my Mars.
- Saturn square my Jupiter (Oct 17); Mars & Mercury conjunct my natal Uranus in Scorpio (6th).
- Saturn opposite my Moon; from Oct 23, Neptune joins the opposition to my Moon.
- Full Moon Oct 6, 14° Aries — opposite my natal Pluto.
🐾 Ongoing: Ruby in physical therapy twice a week · my back in physical therapy twice a week + back specialist.
Running total to date14 cases of fraudulence5 legal matters opened1 procedures on my back first — Oct 274 doctor visits
November 2025
The interference the server break-in
🌍 What happened
- Nov 1 — A contractor threatened to undo paid work; an emergency 1 a.m. Zoom to redo everything.
- Nov 4 — Ruby couldn't get up and didn't recognize me from five feet away.
- Nov 5 — A marketing email went out with the wrong address and wrong info on launch day.
- Nov 6 — The Moon rode over Uranus on my Ascendant, opposite Mars in Sagittarius — a day that felt electric and off. — Moon & Uranus conjunct my Ascendant, opposite Mars; Neptune opposite my Moon; Pluto square my Chiron.
- Nov 8 — Filed a formal dispute; the hiring platform pushed a 50/50 mediation I rejected — a 3-hour call; filed a second dispute against a former staffer who broke her NDA.
- Nov 9 — Opened up to a friend: Ruby's surgery, my back, a grand-larceny matter, four active disputes, a crashed website three contractors couldn't fix. — Neptune opposite my Moon; Uranus square my Saturn; Sun conjunct my Uranus.
- Nov 11 — A pharmacy shortage left me without my medications; two hours on the phone with insurance; slept on the floor.
- Nov 17 — Confirmed I'd lost nearly $20K to a contractor who did nothing; filed Amex chargebacks. Around here I started to feel the universe didn't want me making YouTube videos — it kept hurling unexpected, draining events at me, leaving no time for the work I love.
- Nov 20 — A contractor delivered a mobile-only checkout that broke on web; an AWS/Cloudflare outage took the whole site down again. How do I tell my subscribers these outages aren't my fault? — New Moon 28° Scorpio conjunct Mercury Rx, opposite Uranus, both square my natal Saturn-Regulus — a fixed T-square; Neptune opposite my Moon (a second T-square with my Jupiter). More fraudulence, technical failure, outage. This is not normal, indescribable. These aspects hammering me — have to keep recording forecasts. Not sure if I’m capable. Ruby still waking me in the middle of the night, too. Haven’t slept.
- Nov 21 — Someone I'd hired the day before turned out to be an impersonator using another person’s identity — my tenth case of fraudulence. Indescribable. How is this possible? Pulled into yet another mediation with a fraudulent account.
- Nov 26 — Thanksgiving. The minute I stepped onto the driveway, home with family, a message came in from my assistant: a contractor had illegally broken into my server and wiped every website and every email. This is criminal — literally a federal crime. I traced the IP, filed three reports and a police report, and began legal action — on phone calls the entire three days I was home with family. The universe is really hammering me down. — Neptune opposite my Moon; Uranus square my natal Saturn; the Moon square my Uranus; Mars conjunct my Neptune.
- Nov 27 — Up until 2 a.m. filing the federal cybercrime (IC3) report — on the holiday.
- Nov 29 — The fraudulent profile I'd disputed on the hiring platform charged my credit card without my authority, violating escrow rules. Speechless, numb. I don't know why this keeps happening. This is not normal.
- Neptune opposite my Moon — it sits there for months (Oct 23 – Jan 26), a T-square with my Jupiter.
- New Moon Nov 20, 28° Scorpio — conjunct Mercury Rx, opposite Uranus, both square my natal Saturn.
- Mercury retrograde in Sagittarius, crossing my 7th-house Neptune.
- Saturn opposite my Moon, square my Jupiter; Uranus square my Saturn.
- Pluto square my Chiron; the nodes square my Neptune (Oct 31 – Nov).
- Full Moon Nov 5, 13° Taurus — opposite my natal Uranus.
☿℞ Mercury Retrograde · Nov 9 – Nov 29 · Sagittarius → Scorpio
Stations retrograde Nov 9 at 6°52′ Sagittarius, backs across my 7th-house Neptune, and turns direct Nov 29 at 20°42′ Scorpio — in my 6th house of work, staff and tech. The month the server was broken into and the disputes multiplied.
Logged under this window — the heaviest of the year (146 incidents in 49 days)
- I was robbed — police report filed.
- Every website and email I owned was wiped in one night; the login traced back to a former contractor. I filed an FBI report at 2 a.m.
- MAX Pre-Beta launch for Founding Members — an exciting moment. A developer caused a malfunction in the backend literally hours later. Yet another jab to the platform from Mercury retrograde. This is the fifth? Sixth? Worst Mercury retrograde so far this year?
- A contractor I hired to fix a malfunction turned out to be a fake account — a good one. Caught him the next day and cancelled the contract, but — my tenth case of fraud. This is NOT normal. Thanks Uranus, Mercury, Neptune, Saturn — get off my Ascendant and Moon please!
- The apartment itself: a heater blew the electricity, a humidifier tipped across the bed, and sage smoke filled the rooms while the alarm stayed silent.
- Driving south, the phone died mid-route, the gas pump was broken, and I reached a medical appointment on the wrong train and the wrong day.
🐾 Ongoing: Ruby in physical therapy twice a week · my back in physical therapy twice a week + back specialist.
Running total to date20 cases of fraudulence9 legal matters opened1 procedures on my back4 doctor visits
December 2025
The holidays that weren't
🌍 What happened
- Dec 1 — Got the host's email naming who'd wiped out all my websites; lost four hours on a newsletter, then a broken phone cable and a dead gas pump derailed a five-hour mountain drive — all while sorting three legal cases.
- Dec 2 — Another four hours assembling the AmEx dispute package against a fraudulent account holder; staying at a beautiful resort but unable to leave my room, stuck in front of my computer, cleaning up several messes, putting out fires. Missed lunch, never got to my readings. Saturn, Uranus, Neptune and Pluto — all the outer planets — grinding me down for months now. Inescapable, literally.
- Dec 5 — Two hours at the police station reporting the person who wiped my files and sites; a bug threw off MAX's transits, a horoscope went unposted — putting out fire after fire after fire. Thanks Uranus. My chest went tight.
- Dec 6 — A cheap heater blew out my electricity; Ruby wasn't walking, wasn't eating, sleeping all day — the vet said it's likely the surgery. A 15–18 hour day at the computer.
- Dec 7 — Blacked out on the floor, light-headed from sheer exhaustion.
- Dec 8 — A developer threatened not to finish and demanded more money; found evidence a former contractor had logged back into a company platform a week after being gone. This is unauthorized, illegal access. I really need to find an attorney — I just wish I had the time.
- Dec 9 — Fell asleep on the floor; my back so bad I needed a session to fix it; an hour on the phone to sign up for $1,300-a-month health insurance.
- Dec 10 — The pharmacy was out of my prescription again; then a terrifying night — Ruby suddenly couldn't see, didn't blink under a flashlight — I called the ER vet at 2 a.m.
- Dec 11 — The vet diagnosed Ruby with canine senility and a growth in her eye; on the phone with my own doctor over last month's prescription fiasco. I have no idea how to explain it to my members — none of this is my fault. The past few months have been so outrageous they almost sound unbelievable, but I keep showing them my chart, just to give them an idea of how a dozen challenging, long-term aspects hitting at once can impact you. — Uranus square my Saturn (0.05°); Mars opposite my Jupiter; Neptune opposite my Moon.
- Dec 12 — Trigger-point injections in my back and neck; the stem-cell surgeon said nothing more can be done for Ruby — discs, knee, muscle, senility — a second quality-of-life talk; the wheelchair didn't work. — Mars square my Moon (0.86°); Neptune opposite my Moon; Uranus square my Saturn.
- Dec 15 — My medication on back order again after last month's fiasco; still not one attorney would take my case.
- Dec 17 — Physical therapy — "my back, my legs, everything's spent"; a close friend learned he has brain cancer and a year to live; Ruby can't walk more than two blocks.
- Dec 18 — Broke down in tears and rushed Ruby to the ER in the West Village; they couldn't say what was wrong; home at 11 p.m. — Sun opposite my Jupiter; Uranus square my Saturn.
- Dec 24 — Kept losing members and subscribers — again, forces out of my control. All I want is to record my videos.
- Dec 26–30 — Couldn't go a single day without someone falling short: found two contractors had been padding their hours — one had lied for two months and never answered a single support ticket. Lost members. Fired both.
- Saturn opposite my Moon; Neptune opposite my Moon — both bearing down on my 28° Virgo Moon.
- Saturn–Neptune square my Jupiter.
- Uranus square my natal Saturn (exact ~the 12th).
- Mars square my Moon (~the 12th); Mars opposite my Jupiter.
- Pluto square my Chiron (still ~2°).
- New Moon Dec 19, 28° Sagittarius — on my natal Ceres; Full Moon Dec 4 in Gemini, my rising sign.
🐾 Ongoing: Ruby in physical therapy twice a week · my back in physical therapy twice a week + back specialist.
Running total to date25 cases of fraudulence11 legal matters opened2 procedures on my back6 doctor visits
January 2026
A birthday I worked straight through
🌍 What happened
- Jan 5 — At Ruby's assessment, learned her knee injury was now a full tear needing a support harness.
- Jan 7 — An indescribable nightmare — a convergence of separate contractors not doing the work; caught inflating hours or lying to me. Thanks, Uranus. Fired someone not meeting the terms, disputed an overcharge, found a freelancer had done none of the paid work.
- Jan 8 — A former freelancer I'd had to fire — he broke his contract and did less than half the work — posted "doesn't pay freelancers" in a private 40K+ entrepreneurs' community and got me kicked out, even though I'd paid for everything except the final order he never delivered (it's in the contract). He also showed our codebase in his video, breaching an NDA and exposing confidential company information. I really need a lawyer now. — Venus, the Sun & Mars conjunct at 18° Capricorn, right on my natal Mercury — squaring my Pluto (a loaded 8th-house hit); Saturn square my Jupiter; Jupiter opposite my Mercury; Neptune opposite my Moon.
- Jan 9 — A ~15-hour day with one hour off to walk Ruby; my life had shrunk to nothing but work.
- Jan 12 — Unbelievable — the disputed $5,529 charge from a fraud profile was somehow reversed against me. I noticed the mediator's email signature: not normal support, but the hiring platform's legal team, putting me in a lose-lose against a fraudulent account that showed no proof of work — because he did none — while I'd handed over every screenshot proving he never even logged in. The platform violated its own policy. Still hunting for attorneys, so stressful on top of everything else.
- Jan 17 — Finally hired an operations manager — he starts onboarding next week. So excited, though buried in paperwork.
- Jan 18 — Back to 18-hour days with no time to find a lawyer, stewing over negligence and mounting lawsuits. — New Moon 28° Capricorn opposite my natal Mars.
- Jan 23 — An hour-long credit-card dispute call suddenly dropped — are you serious? A $1,400 back-therapy device I had to pay for out of pocket arrived missing pieces and doesn't work. Ridiculous. Emailed support. I can feel everything falling apart inside me — I'm drained, exhausted, and just need to keep it together.
- Jan 26 — Depleted. Not normal — I can't believe this. An audit showed the freelancer who breached his contract and NDA and defamed me had deliberately damaged our MAX code — deleted 20,000 lines, undoing all our work in a way no developer would ever catch. A second, separate audit confirmed the the deliberate damage. Illegal, on so many levels — now escalating into two lawsuits. To the point of no return. — Mars conjunct Pluto at 3° Aquarius, square my Chiron (perfect Jan 27); Uranus conjunct the Moon in Taurus, square my Saturn-Regulus; Neptune enters Aries. Mercury conjunct my Venus; Saturn opposite my Moon.
- Jan 28 — My 48th birthday. I worked, alone, no celebration — still without a lawyer, still stuck on contractor issues. Ruby, still joyless, still can't walk — it breaks my heart. — the Sun returned to my Sun (0.3°); Saturn opposite my Moon (0.6°); Jupiter square my Pluto.
- Jan 31 — Three straight hours of streams and calls plus an hour on the phone with insurance — I hit the wall: "I can't do this anymore."
- Saturn opposite my Moon (0.6°) and square my Jupiter; Neptune opposite my Moon (through Jan 26).
- New Moon Jan 18, 28° Capricorn — opposite my natal Mars.
- Jan 6–8: Venus, the Sun & Mars conjunct at 16–18° Capricorn — on my Mercury, square my Pluto.
- Jan 27: Mars conjunct Pluto (3° Aquarius) square my Chiron; Uranus conjunct the Moon square my Saturn.
- Uranus square my natal Saturn; Jupiter opposite my Mercury.
- Full Moon Jan 3, 13° Cancer — square my Pluto.
🐾 Ongoing: Ruby in physical therapy twice a week · my back in physical therapy twice a week + back specialist.
Running total to date29 cases of fraudulence14 legal matters opened2 procedures on my back6 doctor visits
February 2026
Completely broken — and the first crack of light eclipse
🌍 What happened
- Feb 1 — The fifth straight month unable to fill a prescription; a shouting match at the counter, then an altercation with a man in a car who almost hit Ruby — he got to see the Mars-in-Cancer in me.
- Feb 5 — Health-insurance stress stacking. Thanks Saturn/Neptune opposite my Virgo Moon, I can’t. A week earlier the old company never cancelled, so I was paying two insurers about $1,400 each. The state helpline cut off mid-call again. A rep finally told me to call New York State to "change some code" — my sixth call to them. I called during the call; they put me on hold, the line went silent and dropped. Too exhausting. I'm not getting that money back — I have to protect my mental health.
- Feb 10 — Confronted a contractor for unauthorized work with no QA; the flagship product still wouldn't run.
- Feb 12 — Had to pay a contractor $4,000 for work I ended up doing myself — he'd done maybe 15% of his contract, and I didn't have the time, energy, or mental capacity to fight it. Finally got a backup hard drive that duplicates everything — then lost $200 on a Coinbase pool over some ridiculous fee. — Mars square my Uranus (0.27°); Jupiter square my Pluto; Saturn opposite my Moon.
- Feb 13 — Finally booked an interview with a paralegal to help with the cases — but right at interview time he emailed to say he couldn't take it. So strange, though not surprising given everything. Ruby couldn't walk at all — I just stood on the corner holding her.
- Feb 15 — Ran completely out of reserve: slept four hours on the floor, managed one video, hadn't eaten or cleaned.
- Feb 17 — Solar eclipse 28° Aquarius — opposite my natal Saturn-Regulus (0.25°). The kingmaker star, eclipsed.
- Feb 20 — Completely broken — hoping Saturn conjunct Neptune at 0° Aries today brings the reset, a huge reset. Living off savings now, haven't made a dime — all the money I make goes back into the platforms and my family, and I'm not sure how long I can hold. A tangled workers'-comp filing, and now my eyes too strained to see. I need an eye doctor. — Saturn conjunct Neptune at 0° Aries, sextile my Ascendant; Uranus square my Saturn.
- Feb 23 — A transfer bounced, so the paychecks bounced — what is happening? Why didn't my bank alert me? I still had to pay out my team. And a record blizzard meant Ruby couldn't get her walk.
- Feb 24 — A law firm and the paralegal both declined; $2,000 gone to an agency for a week's work; and a car break-in — robbed, a laptop stolen.
- Feb 26 — A sharp pain in my side — rib or kidney — bad enough I might need it checked; no idea how much money I had left.
- Solar eclipse Feb 17, 28° Aquarius — opposite my natal Saturn-Regulus (0.25°).
- Saturn conjunct Neptune at 0° Aries — sextile my Ascendant (perfecting Feb 20).
- Mars square my natal Uranus; Jupiter square my Pluto.
- And at last — Saturn lifts off my Moon. "Eight months of that — over."
- Full Moon Feb 1, 13° Leo — opposite my Midheaven.
☿℞ Mercury Retrograde · Feb 26 – Mar 20 · Pisces
Stations retrograde Feb 26 at 22°34′ Pisces, turns direct Mar 20 at 8°29′ Pisces — in my 10th house of career and public name, feeding straight into March's 28° Pisces grand cross. It rides the North Node the whole way, rewinding what the world sees of me.
Logged under this window
- I bought an external hard drive to back everything up; setting it up corrupted the computer instead — every file duplicated, hours to undo.
- A $1,200 therapy device arrived without the coils that make it work — three follow-ups, then stuck at the post office.
- My accountants hadn’t filed my business taxes — not one deadline.
- Mar 9 — The wrong version of my website went live.
🐾 Ongoing: Ruby in physical therapy twice a week · my back in physical therapy twice a week + back specialist.
Running total to date33 cases of fraudulence15 legal matters opened2 procedures on my back7 doctor visits
March 2026
The flu, the spine, and Ruby's legs
🌍 What happened
- Mar 2 — Filed for workers' comp through severe stomach and colon pain radiating into my back; Ruby went down and cried for over an hour.
- Mar 3 — Total lunar eclipse 12°54′ Virgo — in my Moon's sign. Virgo rules health, the digestive system, and pets — and right on cue: Ruby's flare-ups and my own intestinal and rib pain. It squared my Neptune (wide), and Mars had just hit 0° Pisces, square my Ascendant–Descendant — another T-square across my angles.
- Mar 5 — Trigger-point injections and Botox on my back at my back doctor; filed paperwork for three hours, exhausted.
- Mar 8 — Faced that Ruby can no longer walk or stand on her own and cries in constant pain — weighing her quality of life. — Sun square my Neptune; Uranus square my Saturn; Pluto climbing toward my Sun.
- Mar 10 — Back pain so severe I needed osteopathic treatment; sleep paralysis overnight; too exhausted to film.
- Mar 12–13 — The operations manager who fought so hard to be hired finished onboarding — and turned out to do nothing: he couldn't answer basic questions, and the "work" he showed was something ChatGPT could have done. A marketing agency delivering work far below standard I also had to let go.
- Mar 17 — At the doctor for rib and side pain — it's been two weeks now. Now I have to get X-rays.
- Mar 18 — New Moon 28° Pisces — a mutable grand cross on my chart: opposite my Moon (4th), square my Jupiter (1st), square my Ceres (7th). Mercury retrograde sat conjunct the North Node at 8° Pisces, amplifying it all. One of the hardest new moons of the year.
- Mar 21 — A fever and a dream that I was paralyzed; cognitive overload while picking up muscle relaxants for my back.
- Mar 25 — Found my operations manager had lied about handling the marketing agency — which then sent legal threats. I had to step in. — Uranus square my Saturn (0.08°); Mars square my Neptune; Saturn conjunct my South Node.
- Mar 30–31 — Down on the floor shivering with fever for hours, then knocked flat by the flu.
- Total lunar eclipse Mar 3, 12°54′ Virgo — in my Moon's sign (health, digestion, pets); Mars 0° Pisces square my Ascendant.
- New Moon Mar 18, 28° Pisces — opposite my Moon, square my Jupiter, square my Ceres: a mutable grand cross; Mercury Rx on the North Node.
- Saturn crossing onto my South Node as the Aries stellium builds.
- Uranus square my natal Saturn; Jupiter square my Pluto; Mars square my Neptune (late March).
🐾 Ongoing: Ruby in physical therapy twice a week · my back in physical therapy twice a week + back specialist.
Running total to date34 cases of fraudulence16 legal matters opened5 procedures on my back11 doctor visits
April 2026
The professionals who didn't the South Node stack
🌍 What happened
- Apr 1 — Full Moon 12° Libra — a cardinal T-square with Jupiter in Cancer. Full moons illuminate — and look what surfaced the very next day.
- Apr 2 — Discovered the accountant agency I'd paid monthly since September had never filed my business taxes — I had to do my own; 3–4 hours building the complaint.
- Apr 3 — Up all night doing my own P&L and deductions; a contractor botched the email campaign so it went out hours late.
- Apr 4–6 — Found out the operations manager hadn't been doing the required work and had lied to me for two months; on a call with our dev agency, learned he'd never even given them backend access. This won't end well. Ruby wasn't walking at all. — Apr 5: Mars 26° Pisces square my Jupiter.
- Apr 8 — Threw my back out with a muscle spasm; my operations manager found the replacement posting and confronted me. I see the back doctor tomorrow. I can't deal — not writing back. — Mars opposite my Moon (0.2°); Jupiter square my Pluto; Sun square my Mercury.
- Apr 9 — Nerve blocks and trigger points ahead of another ablation; fired the operations manager by call, citing 19 violations of his contract, and gave him two weeks; Ruby couldn't walk a single step.
- Apr 10 — Severe back pain from the nerve block; my researcher / livestream moderator, moving to Portugal, put in his 30-day notice; still scripting six hours against doctor's orders.
- Apr 11–12 — Ruby completely unable to walk; missed her vet a third week running; cried all night, weighing the hardest decision.
- Apr 16 — Found a former developer had again logged into a company account without authorization; 15 hours at the computer.
- Apr 17 — New Moon 27° Aries conjunct Chiron, square my natal Mars — and Saturn perfected exactly on my South Node (0.11°), square my Juno, with Pluto climbing toward my Sun. The heaviest angle of the whole year.
- Apr 19 — A triple conjunction — Saturn, Mars & Mercury all on my South Node (7° Aries), opposite my North Node. You cannot make this up.
- Apr 20 — The IP attorney I'd hired went silent — never called back, ignored my email despite read receipts. More fraudulence. $8,500 gone, just like that — one more thing on top of hundreds. Can't properly heal; have to record forecasts. — Saturn & Mercury on my South Node; Sun conjunct my Chiron.
- Apr 23 — At the pain clinic, told I need nerve blocks again instead of the ablation; disability-paperwork delays; a 3.5-hour call swallowed the day. — Venus square my Saturn; the Moon conjunct my Mars.
- Apr 27 — Mercury 19° Aries square my natal Mercury, with Jupiter opposite it from Cancer — a cardinal grand cross onto my Pluto. Everything squeezed at once. — Mercury square my Mercury (0.27°); Jupiter opposite my Mercury; Uranus conjunct my Ascendant.
- Apr 28–29 — Two candidates fell through; a hire's botched login broke customer sign-ins.
- New Moon Apr 17, 27° Aries — conjunct Chiron, square my Mars; Saturn exact on my South Node (0.11°).
- Apr 19: Saturn, Mars & Mercury triple-conjunct my South Node, opposite my North Node.
- Apr 27: Mercury 19° Aries square my Mercury & opposite Jupiter — a grand cross with my Pluto.
- Full Moon Apr 1, 12° Libra; a stellium in Aries; Pluto square my Chiron.
- Apr 5: Mars 26° Pisces square my Jupiter; Sun conjunct my Chiron (Apr 20).
🐾 Ongoing: Ruby in physical therapy twice a week · my back in physical therapy twice a week + back specialist.
Running total to date39 cases of fraudulence17 legal matters opened7 procedures on my back15 doctor visits
May 2026
Grief, and the nerve that wouldn't quiet
🌍 What happened
- May 1 — An endless day pulling a former contractor out of every company system.
- May 2 — Awkwardness with a close friend over brunch — he pointed out I haven't seen him or our friends in months. I haven't had the time. I need to make time.
- May 5 — Mars 19° Aries squared my natal Mercury while Jupiter sat 19° Cancer opposite it — a cardinal T-square at 19°, with Pluto stationing right on my Sun the day before it turned retrograde. — Mars square my Mercury; Jupiter opposite my Mercury; Pluto on my Sun.
- May 7 — A nerve ablation on the left side of my back while my platforms went unstable again — this time a contractor changing things without approval. Worked around the clock to fix it, basically undid my ablation. Stress through the roof. Thanks Uranus!!!!! — Uranus exact on my Ascendant (final pass, 0.01°); Venus opposite my Neptune; Jupiter opposite my Mercury.
- May 12–13 — Learned my close friend with cancer wouldn’t survive the night; he passed — while I was writing a termination letter, finding out my accounting firm had mishandled my tax payment (four penalties), Ruby restless today. I am numb. At this point, the planets have won. I feel broken. I am broken. My nervous system not functioning. Sitting here, broken — don’t know what my lesson is here. Trying. — Uranus conjunct my Ascendant; Chiron square my Mars; Jupiter opposite my Mercury.
- May 16 — A terminated contractor deleted the company's videos — three hours of recovery; I broke down mourning my friend.
- May 18 — Funeral on late notice — I couldn't get there that fast with Ruby; a part-time developer lied about his hours, so I fired him, and he deleted our videos before leaving. Thankfully we had a backup.
- May 19 — The accounting firm returned tax docs riddled with errors; told Ruby likely will never walk on her own again.
- May 22 — The second nerve ablation on my back; came home to a distressed dog and a lot to clean up. — Chiron square my Mars (0.26°); the Sun conjunct my Ascendant; Uranus on my Ascendant.
- May 30 — My back gave out with pain shooting down my right leg; the sciatica is acting up now; Ruby pottied in the apartment and cried through an hour of cleanup — I feel everything collapsing, but I’m trying my best to hold it together. Held her after.
- Uranus completes its year on my Ascendant — final exact hit May 8 (0.01°).
- May 5: Mars 19° Aries square my Mercury, Jupiter 19° Cancer opposite it — a cardinal T-square; Pluto stationing on my Sun.
- Saturn on my South Node, stripping away everyone who wasn't meant to stay.
- Chiron square my natal Mars all month; Jupiter opposite my Mercury.
- Full Moon May 1, 11° Scorpio — square my Midheaven and Venus.
🐾 Ongoing: Ruby in physical therapy twice a week · my back in physical therapy twice a week + back specialist.
Running total to date41 cases of fraudulence17 legal matters opened9 procedures on my back17 doctor visits
June 2026
MAX is born — same chaos, same signature. Saturn, Neptune, Uranus, Mercury, etc — only peaking. world's first predictive AI oracle
🌍 What happened
- Jun 1–2 — Days from launching MAX with no new hires despite months of listings — doing everyone's job myself under tax and IRS stress.
- Jun 4 — A full day of interviews for an operations director — a great call with the top candidate, but after 1.5 hours she wanted $50K more than our listing. The whole effort wasted. Time wasted. I'm tired.
- Jun 5 — Ruby can no longer walk, joyless; a hard call with mom, a decision to make; had another back injection. Hired a freelance marketing person for the MAX launch to manage our newsletters — at the end of the interview, after hiring her, she asked for a tarot reading. Now the third applicant who only applied to have one-on-one time with me. This has to stop! — Chiron square my Mars; Mercury square my nodes.
- Jun 9 — MAX officially launched! Venus conjunct Jupiter in Cancer, on my Mars — but the same launch-day chaos: the announcement pushed from 10 a.m., the marketer I hired yesterday never showed — not really surprised, but still; welcome emails weren’t ready; member emails didn’t go out until evening. — Mars exactly opposite my Uranus (0.01°); Chiron square my Mars; Uranus on my Ascendant.
- Jun 10 — Paid ~$10,000 in one day on legal and tax bills — still haven’t even broken even on Great Awakener; the 10 a.m. email didn’t go out until 8 p.m. because my team never loaded Kit, with a full month to do it.
- Jun 13 — Ruby barely moving, sleeping most of the day, brought me to tears: "I can't run this business. I have to step back."
- Jun 15–16 — My back seized up; the IP attorney still hadn't followed through — the dispute boiled over into a refund demand and chargeback threat.
- Jun 18 — Chasing recurring weekly software charges for things I never signed up for; a PR hire with 15 years' experience had done almost nothing despite claiming 20 hours.
- Jun 24 — Fired the freelance PR hire who delivered almost nothing — hadn't even sent pitches to our media list in two weeks, and had no good excuse. — Jupiter conjunct my Mars (0.16°); my Chiron Return begins; the nodes square my Ascendant.
- Jun 30 — Our favorite, final operations candidate randomly demanded equity and a start date in August — WTF. Unbelievable. Endless back and forth. Burnout is real. I feel it in my bones after a year; had a long talk with mom, not easy at all — and the plan to drive Ruby home so family can say goodbye.
- Venus & Jupiter conjunct in Cancer, on my Mars (25–28° Cancer) at the launch.
- Mars exactly opposite my Uranus (0.01°, Jun 9).
- Jupiter conjunct my Mars (Jun 24).
- Chiron square my Mars; my Chiron Return begins (Chiron conjunct my Chiron).
- The nodes square my Ascendant; Pluto in Aquarius closing on my Sun.
☿℞ Mercury Retrograde · Jun 29 – Jul 23 · Cancer
Stations retrograde Jun 29 at 26°15′ Cancer — a breath from my natal Mars — and turns direct Jul 23 at 16°19′ Cancer, in my 2nd house of money and self-worth. A last review of everything I built, ending days before the nodes turn and I finally choose rest.
Logged under this window — the densest stretch of all
- MAX crashed, then began giving members wrong information — the one thing an oracle can’t do.
- My checkout had been unguarded since February; about forty people took the product for free before anyone noticed.
- The attorney I’d paid to file my trademarks never filed them.
- An offer letter went to the wrong person; I lost my phone for a day, left my wallet in the laundry, and the air conditioner short-circuited the room.
- Jul 7 — A dog walker turned up for a booking that didn’t exist.
- Jul 19 — I wrote the newsletter, edited it, and sent it through — and came home to find the edits had never gone through at all.
- Jul 21 — An Amazon package went missing and turned up opened; four emails from my attorney about IP sat unseen in my inbox; a $434 tax bill and an IRS collection notice for $1,168 arrived with no record of the $8,330 I paid on June 4.
- Jul 22 — A security incident on my American Express: a login from an unfamiliar browser on a Windows machine, and an unknown device added to the account. Two hours of glitches and a password change. Separately, our accountants had filed a tax wrong — a $1,000 error.
- Jul 23 — Mercury stationed direct at 6:57 PM — and that same day a contractor billed nine extra hours against a flat-fee contract, and I found the platform had been rolled back past the point I could recover from.
🐾 Ongoing: Ruby in physical therapy twice a week · my back in physical therapy twice a week + back specialist.
Running total to date45 cases of fraudulence18 legal matters opened10 procedures on my back18 doctor visits
July 2026
The breaking point — and the turn toward rest
🌍 What happened
- Jul 1 — Up before dawn with Ruby, then straight into recording; a wave of fraudulent charges to dispute and 40–140 support tickets a day flooding in.
- Jul 2 — A hard reset with my whole team; new members coming in, but the platform kept breaking. — Mars conjunct Uranus on my Ascendant; my nervous system at its edge.
- Jul 4 — The exact day Mars met Uranus on my Ascendant — I'd never felt so raw. Hours on contracts and an American Express dispute. Then I took Ruby to the park for the fireworks — the first real breath in weeks. — Mars & Uranus on my Ascendant; the nodes square my Ascendant; Saturn opposite my Pluto.
- Jul 5 — Canceled my livestreams at the last minute; taxes, contracts, and the hardest question of all — Ruby's quality of life. A true crisis of faith.
- Jul 6 — Mercury retrograde everywhere; I finally accepted I need real help and started the search for an operations lead. A tender hour just holding Ruby.
- Jul 7 — Another muscle tear in my calf in the middle of the night — Uranus, again. But I helped Ruby walk outside, and it meant everything. — the nodes square my Ascendant (0.02°); Venus conjunct my Saturn; my Chiron Return.
- Jul 8 — Six hours of sleep; finished recording; found a missed quarterly tax payment and new security gaps on the site. I took Ruby to her favorite pet store — a small joy.
- Jul 9 — A wall of outer-planet pressure. I let my partnerships lead go and started asking myself, honestly, what's actually sustainable. — Saturn opposite my Pluto; Ascendant square the nodes; Sun square my Saturn.
- Jul 10 — Ruby got a haircut and groom — and for the first time in ages, she played, prancing in her little neckerchief. A pure, unexpected moment of joy in a brutal week. — trigger-point treatment for my back; a long-overdue catch-up.
- Jul 16 — A calf muscle ruptured again overnight — excruciating. Forced flat for the day; grateful the frequency-therapy device actually helped.
- Jul 18 — Uranus trine Pluto, exact — a rare, generational opening under all the noise; I felt the ground shift even while putting out fires.
- Jul 19 — No sleep at all. I fought my way through writing the newsletter, edited it, and sent it on — then the 11 a.m. livestream and the Great Awakener streams back to back. Got home and found the edits had never gone through. A four-hour nap, then new arnica gel for my back and my leg.
- Jul 20 — Five hours' sleep, then the gym and laps in the pool — and I stepped on a grate and cut my foot open. IRS penalties and unemployment-insurance confusion; fixed the stand-up bot; reset a computer that had completely overloaded. A call with an agency, and I missed a call I'd needed to make. A long voice-message exchange with a friend — I read her astrocartography and found her Jupiter line running through Seattle.
- Jul 21 — Ruby out at 8. An hour-long agency call spilled straight into a second one. A call with a personal-assistant service. One to two hours setting up the email platform and training my assistant on all of it. My nervous system is shot. Scripted from 8 p.m. to 1 a.m.; bed at 4.
- Jul 22 — Gym and a cold plunge — the one clean hour of the day. A two-hour call with my accounting collective sorted the penalty letters and turned up a $400 charge that was the company's and a $1,000 error that was theirs. Then the American Express security incident swallowed the afternoon. Picked up prescriptions; Ruby out.
- Jul 23 — One of the hardest days of the whole year — running on very little, everything at once, and Ruby whining every ten minutes, then every two. I was up and down all day and it took my back down further. I wrote my assistant at least eight times asking him to hold; after months of twice-weekly newsletters, the brand voice still isn't landing. Recorded a video I wasn't happy with and posted it at 9 p.m., facing twelve individual signs and a Sunday livestream with no researcher and no writer. And the platform had been rolled back past the point I could recover from — while it's live, with paying members. I held it together, barely. — Mercury stations direct 6:57 PM; the Sun in Leo square my Chiron.
- Jul 24 — Four hours' sleep; a dog sitter took Ruby. A two-hour call, and I was completely drained by the end of it. MAX was giving members wrong information, so I went into the golden set myself and found a great deal wrong with it — had the whole thing redone. Bed at 4:30 a.m.
- Jul 25 — Hundreds of comments on Thursday's video, all saying the same word: audio. Two hours fixing the mic. A contractor still hadn't set up daily failed-payment recovery. I was up all night on the golden set — and nobody uploaded it. No script and no light left to film by 8 p.m. Over 20 squares, oppositions, and two grand crosses in a single day. And somewhere in it, the truth landed: I've been fighting destiny. I don't have to keep working 16-hour days. It's time to rest. — 20+ hard aspects; the Sun in Leo square my Chiron.
- Jul 26 — Awake at 4 a.m., and for the first time in a year I wasn't angry — I was relieved. I told my audience there would be no August overview, that I need time off for my mental, physical, emotional and spiritual health. Then on the livestream I walked them through the whole past year, mapped against the sky, built from these journals. They couldn't believe it. Forty-five minutes on the Mercury retrograde alone. Ruby to the park. — the nodes cross into Aquarius/Leo, 8:46 PM ET; Saturn stations retrograde 3:56 PM at 14°45′ Aries.
- Jul 27 — Slept through the alarm; the dog walker took Ruby while I slept. Fifteen minutes late to the gym, then stretching. An agency call that went well — and cheaper than I expected. Hours spent organizing instead of firefighting. A questionnaire and a 90-minute onboarding call with the assistant service. And my taxes are finally settled. Thank God that's over. I mapped my own sky chart and got lost in Mars in Cancer, 2023 and 2025. I have to build a daily tracker — I'm stepping back, but it needs to be in a good place first.
- Jul 28 — Built the tracker in Notion for the assistant coming in. Matched with someone in Guatemala — personal and professional, $3,000 a month. Wrote and sent one termination letter and prepared another. Added terms and conditions. Learned the golden set had never been in production — that was the cause of the wrong answers all along. Also learned a contractor had spent the past week building version two after being told four times not to. Spent an hour on my Mars story from 2023 forward — Mars in Cancer, my 2nd house of money. A 15–16 hour day, and it happens to be the biggest sky day of the year.
- Jul 29 — The luckiest day of the year — and I filmed straight through it until 9 p.m. Ten minutes late to the gym, thirty minutes on my back, no time to swim. Ruby out for half an hour. Then the video didn't get posted, and I found out on Slack. I passed out on the couch around midnight. — Full Moon 6°30′ Aquarius on my natal Sun, opposite the Sun–Jupiter cazimi at 6°25′ Leo, 8:17 AM ET.
- Jul 30 — Woke at 7 a.m. on the couch after a dream of a beautiful beach resort — Mexico or Puerto Rico — where I couldn't find my room, and someone I know was there. This is my life now, living on the beach. It came with déjà vu, like parallel versions of me. Used my tenth mat for the first time in a month. Another good agency call — I think we move forward if they'll drop the twelve-month commitment. Ruby out in the rain. Then I ordered a bagel and slept until 6 p.m. — fourteen, fifteen hours. A three-hour call in the evening about restructuring the team. And I saw another mouse.
- Jul 31 — More vivid dreams, and then sleep paralysis, twice in one night. I felt it across my whole body, like someone holding me; I heard a television that wasn't on. It wrapped around my neck. I got out, fell asleep, and instantly it had me again. I woke at 3:30 in my own apartment, sound machine on, Ruby in the bed. Sky chart, let me go. Then: gym, a good swim, Walgreens, and three hours getting two difficult letters exactly right. Ruby had an accident across the floor — that one was on me, I'd left her too long. Pizza at 10 p.m. — the third bout of severe sleep paralysis this year, and the second on a nodal turn.
- Saturn stations opposite my Pluto.
- Mars conjunct Uranus at my Ascendant — the "kicking walls" nerve of the month.
- The nodes square my Ascendant (exact ~Jul 4–7, 0.02°).
- Uranus trine Pluto, exact Jul 18 — the rare bright thread.
- My Chiron Return — Chiron conjunct my natal Chiron; Jupiter square my Chiron.
- Mercury stations direct Jul 23, 6:57 PM, at 16°19′ Cancer — closing the retrograde in my 2nd house.
- Saturn stations retrograde Jul 26, 3:56 PM, at 14°45′ Aries — in my 11th, on the same day the nodes turn.
- The nodes cross into Aquarius/Leo Jul 26, 8:46 PM — the first time in about 19 years.
- Full Moon 6°30′ Aquarius, Jul 29, 10:35 AM — exactly on my natal Sun, opposite the Sun–Jupiter cazimi at 6°25′ Leo, 8:17 AM. The single brightest and heaviest day of the year, three hours apart.
- Neptune sextile Pluto, exact Jul 25 at 4°20′ Aries/Aquarius — the third leg of the outer-planet harmony locks in.
🐾 Ongoing: Ruby in physical therapy twice a week · my back in physical therapy twice a week + back specialist.
Running total to date48 cases of fraudulence20 legal matters opened10 procedures on my back19 doctor visits
⸺ The Turn ⸺
Now · July 26–27, 2026
✦ The nodes turn — and so do I ✦
🌍 What's happening
This week the lunar nodes leave Pisces/Virgo and cross into Aquarius and Leo — the first time in about 19 years. For the first time in this entire year, the weight lifted. I finally said it out loud: I need to take care of myself and spend time with my dog, Ruby. It's all about the future now.
✨ The sky
- The North Node crosses into Aquarius (my 9th — publishing, higher meaning); the South Node into Leo, onto my 3rd-house Saturn-Regulus — the old grind, releasing.
- My Chiron Return — Chiron conjunct my natal Chiron (0.4°): the deep wound, coming round to heal.
- Mercury square my Pluto; Saturn opposite my Pluto.
⸺ The door, and what came through it ⸺
July 29, 2026 · 8:17 AM & 10:35 AM
✦ The luckiest day of the year — and I worked straight through it ✦
🌍 What actually happened
The brightest lunation of the year landed exactly on my Sun, and I spent it filming until nine at night — ten minutes late to the gym, thirty minutes on my back, no swim, Ruby out for half an hour, and the video didn't go up. I said out loud that I didn't believe my own forecast. And then look at the three days on either side of it. On the 27th my taxes were finally settled and an agency call came in under budget. On the 28th I built the tracker, matched with a full-time assistant, and found the real cause of the platform's wrong answers — a thing I'd been chasing for weeks. On the 30th I slept fifteen hours for the first time in a year. The grace didn't arrive as a good day. It arrived as a release, and I was too tired to recognize it while it was happening.
✨ The sky
- Sun conjunct Jupiter — cazimi — 6°25′ Leo, 8:17 AM ET. The single luckiest conjunction of the year, in my 3rd house of voice, near Great Awakener's own Sun.
- Full Moon 6°30′ Aquarius, 10:35 AM ET — exactly on my natal Sun (0°02′), opposite that cazimi. Two hours and eighteen minutes apart.
- The South Node settling onto my Saturn-Regulus — the grind, finally set down.
- Venus square Mars, 3:09 AM at 21°14′ Virgo/Gemini — the friction that ran underneath the whole day.
A Full Moon on my Sun = something big ends. A Jupiter cazimi = the self reborn and blessed for a year. Both, in the same morning, means the ending is the blessing. I was looking for the door to open in front of me. It opened behind me, and it closed.
⸺ The ledger ⸺
📊 The year, counted
Everything below is counted from the 172 dated entries in this document — July 2025 through July 31, 2026. Where one entry carries more than one date, each date is counted once. Where one case runs across several months, it is counted as one case and the run of dates is shown. Nothing here is estimated.
The six headline numbers come first, then the two dated lists that sit behind them.
43Cases of fraudulencedistinct cases of fraudulence, theft, extortion or breach of contract by people I hired or paid — across 48 dated entries
51Mentions of Rubyplus the standing "🐾 Ongoing" line on every month of the year
19Times I went to a doctorappointments, treatments and physical therapy for myself — not counting Ruby's vet
16Back & spine visitsof those 19 — the back doctor, the pain clinic, the osteopath, PT
3Stomach / GI visitsFeb 26 · Mar 2 · Mar 17 — side, rib, stomach and colon pain
10Proceduresinjections, Botox, trigger points, nerve blocks, two ablations, X-rays
🩺 The 19 doctor visits, dated
2025 · Aug 29 (canceled PT) · Sep 8 · Oct 1 (started PT twice a week) · Oct 27 (back injections + Botox) · Dec 12 (trigger-point, back & neck) · Dec 17 2026 · Feb 26 (side/rib) · Mar 2 (stomach & colon) · Mar 5 (trigger-point + Botox) · Mar 10 (osteopathic) · Mar 17 (rib/side → X-rays) · Apr 8 (threw my back out) · Apr 9 (nerve blocks + trigger points) · Apr 10 (pain from the nerve block) · Apr 23 (pain clinic) · May 7 (nerve ablation, left) · May 22 (second ablation) · Jun 5 (injection) · Jul 10 (trigger-point)
🐾 And Ruby's side of it — 10 vet visits and medical events
2025 · Sep 11 · Sep 30 · Oct 21 · Oct 27 · Dec 6 · Dec 10 · Dec 11 · Dec 12 · Dec 18 (emergency) 2026 · Jan 5 · Apr 11–12 · May 19 — on top of physical therapy twice a week, all year.
⊺ The sky chart ⊺
✦ Every exact aspect behind the year
This is the calculated backbone of everything above — every date on which a transiting planet came to an exact aspect with a point in my birth chart, between July 1, 2025 and August 1, 2026. Nothing here is rounded, remembered or guessed: each one is calculated to the minute of arc from the Swiss Ephemeris, then matched against the journal entry that fell on or beside it.
Forty-seven exact contacts in thirteen months. Read down the right-hand column and the year explains itself.
☼ The five eclipses that fell inside the year
Sep 7, 2025 · 2:08 PM ET Total lunar eclipse — 15°23′ PiscesOpposite my natal Moon’s sign axis and inside the Saturn opposition to my Moon that was running all month. The month Ruby declined and the disputes deepened.
Sep 21, 2025 · 3:54 PM ET Partial solar eclipse — 29°05′ VirgoEleven arcminutes from my natal Moon at 28°54′ Virgo. The closest eclipse to a personal point in the whole year — and it landed the day after I wrote that I could barely watch Ruby try to stand.
Feb 17, 2026 · 7:01 AM ET Annular solar eclipse — 28°50′ AquariusSquare my natal Moon to within four arcminutes, and three days before the Saturn–Neptune conjunction. February is the month the document titles “completely broken.”
Mar 3, 2026 · 6:37 AM ET Total lunar eclipse — 12°54′ VirgoThe eclipse that sat over the stomach and spine stretch — Mar 2 at the doctor, Mar 3 the eclipse itself, Mar 5 the trigger points, Mar 10 the osteopath, Mar 17 the X-rays.
Aug 12, 2025 Great Awakener launch — and the following year’s total solar eclipse of Aug 12, 2026 falls on the anniversary to the day1:36 PM ET at 20°02′ Leo. Same date, one year on. The platform launched under a Leo signature and its first birthday is an eclipse.
🔮 The forty-seven exact contacts, in order
| Jul 12, 2025 | Jupiter square my Nodes — 7°28′ Cancer | exact |
| Jul 20, 2025 | Jupiter opposite my Juno | exact |
| Jul 25, 2025 | Uranus conjunct my Ascendant — 0°43′ Gemini (pass 1 of 3) | exact |
| Aug 22, 2025 | Jupiter trine my Uranus — 16°11′ | exact |
| Aug 25, 2025 | Jupiter square my Pluto — 16°40′ | exact |
| Sep 11, 2025 | Jupiter opposite my Mercury — 19°39′ | exact |
| Sep 15, 2025 | Saturn trine my Mars | exact |
| Sep 16, 2025 | Saturn opposite my Moon — 28°54′ (pass 1) | exact |
| Sep 25, 2025 | Saturn trine my Vesta | exact |
| Sep 26, 2025 | Saturn square my Ceres | exact |
| Oct 12, 2025 | Saturn square my Jupiter — 26°54′ | exact |
| Oct 19, 2025 | Uranus conjunct my Ascendant (pass 2 of 3) | exact |
| Oct 22, 2025 | North Node square my Neptune | exact |
| Nov 10, 2025 | North Node trine my Uranus | exact |
| Dec 4, 2025 | Uranus trine my Moon | exact |
| Dec 12, 2025 | Uranus square my Saturn — 28°35′ Leo, on Regulus (pass 1) | exact |
| Dec 24, 2025 | Uranus opposite my Vesta | exact |
| Jan 11, 2026 | Saturn square my Jupiter (pass 2) | exact |
| Jan 13, 2026 | Jupiter opposite my Mercury (pass 2) | exact |
| Jan 25, 2026 | Saturn square my Ceres (pass 2) | exact |
| Jan 26, 2026 | Saturn trine my Vesta (pass 2) | exact |
| Feb 3, 2026 | Saturn opposite my Moon (pass 2 — the one that lifted) | exact |
| Feb 4, 2026 | Saturn trine my Mars | exact |
| Feb 7, 2026 | Jupiter square my Pluto (pass 2) | exact |
| Feb 12, 2026 | Jupiter trine my Uranus (pass 2) | exact |
| Feb 20, 2026 | Saturn conjunct Neptune — 0°45′ Aries, once in a lifetime | 11:52 AM |
| Mar 16, 2026 | Uranus opposite my Vesta (pass 2) | exact |
| Mar 27, 2026 | Uranus square my Saturn (pass 2) | exact |
| Mar 28, 2026 | Saturn sextile Pluto | exact |
| Apr 3, 2026 | Uranus trine my Moon (pass 2) | exact |
| Apr 6, 2026 | Jupiter trine my Uranus (pass 3) | exact |
| Apr 11, 2026 | Jupiter square my Pluto (pass 3) | exact |
| Apr 16, 2026 | Saturn conjunct my South Node — 7°28′ Aries | exact |
| Apr 17, 2026 | North Node square my Pallas | exact |
| Apr 19, 2026 | Saturn trine my Pallas | exact |
| May 2, 2026 | Saturn square my Juno | exact |
| May 5, 2026 | Jupiter opposite my Mercury (pass 3) | exact |
| May 8, 2026 | Uranus conjunct my Ascendant (pass 3 — the last one) | exact |
| May 10, 2026 | Chiron trine my Ceres | exact |
| May 19, 2026 | Chiron trine my Saturn | exact |
| May 27, 2026 | Chiron square my Mars — 28°58′ Cancer | exact |
| Jun 21, 2026 | Jupiter trine my Vesta | exact |
| Jun 25, 2026 | Jupiter conjunct my Mars — 28°58′ Cancer, sixteen days after MAX launched | exact |
| Jul 2, 2026 | North Node square my Ascendant (pass 1) | exact |
| Jul 5, 2026 | Jupiter square my Chiron | exact |
| Jul 6, 2026 | North Node square my Ascendant (pass 2) | exact |
| Jul 8, 2026 | North Node square my Ascendant (pass 3 — it stationed here) | exact |
| Jul 18–25, 2026 | Uranus trine Pluto · Jupiter opposite Pluto · Jupiter trine Neptune · Jupiter sextile Uranus · Neptune sextile Pluto — five outer-planet aspects in eight days | exact |
🌌 The slow ingresses that framed the whole year
2025 · Jul 7 — Uranus enters Gemini (the year begins) · Sep 1 — Saturn retrogrades back into Pisces · Oct 22 — Neptune retrogrades back into Pisces · Nov 7 — Uranus retrogrades back into Taurus 2026 · Jan 26 — Neptune enters Aries · Feb 13 — Saturn enters Aries · Apr 25 — Uranus enters Gemini for good · Jun 19 — Chiron enters Taurus (my Chiron return opens) · Jun 30 — Jupiter enters Leo · Jul 26 — the North Node enters Aquarius, 8:46 PM ET (the turn)
↺ The retrograde stations, all of them
2025 · Jul 4 Neptune Rx · Jul 13 Saturn Rx · Jul 18 Mercury Rx 15° Leo · Jul 30 Chiron Rx · Aug 11 Mercury direct · Sep 6 Uranus Rx · Oct 13 Pluto direct · Nov 9 Mercury Rx 6° Sagittarius · Nov 11 Jupiter Rx · Nov 27 Saturn direct · Nov 29 Mercury direct · Dec 10 Neptune direct 2026 · Jan 2 Chiron direct · Feb 3 Uranus direct · Feb 26 Mercury Rx 22° Pisces · Mar 10 Jupiter direct · Mar 20 Mercury direct · May 6 Pluto Rx · Jun 29 Mercury Rx 26° Cancer · Jul 7 Neptune Rx · Jul 23 Mercury direct at 16°19′ Cancer · Jul 26 Saturn Rx at 14°45′ Aries
✦ Prepare for major change through 2026 ✦
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July 1, 2025 — July 31, 2026 · Built from thirteen months of daily journals + Swiss Ephemeris. Every date happened; every aspect calculated to the arcminute. · Mercury retrograde log folded in · By Jimmy M · The Tarot Ship w/ Jimmy · Great Awakener · MAX: Your Virtual Oracle Gateway™